I feel I have much to be grateful for, especially this year. I went through a long period of my life working jobs that were dissatisfying and it was difficult for me to feel anything but frustration. I would dream of doing other things but never felt the courage to change anything about my life. I was afraid, afraid of everything. I spent a long time thinking that creative jobs just fell into the laps of those that had them, and I expected the same to happen for me. They knew the right people, had the right connections, etc. and I didn’t, so I was out of luck.
I had to come to my breaking point before I decided to act on what I wanted. Even if I failed, I really felt I owed it to myself to try. So one day a year ago this past Summer I decided I’d had enough. I realized in that moment that if I wanted to do something else with my life than I’d have to make the decision to do it. I emailed my friend Jessica Kettle. I asked her if she’d be willing to help me get a shoot together so I could tell the wedding world that I was ready to do this and I wanted to do it right. So I spent a couple of months thinking thoughtfully about what I wanted my business to be, what I wanted it to look like, and how I wanted to present it.
The day of the shoot came, and it was wonderful. Jessica is a dream. What a wonderful friend she has been to me for years, and I was so thankful for her this day. I love being behind the scenes at a shoot, it’s hectic but so inspiring and this was my first taste. I drove home and cried the whole way, because for a moment I felt what it was like to really be a florist and I never wanted to lose it.
I was very anxious to see the photos from the shoot, and even more anxious to share them with the internet! The day we posted them Jessica was contacted by a few local blogs, and we had it featured on Utah Bride Blog. I was thrilled and even more than that I was humbled.
I didn’t want to lose the energy that I gained from that experience so I kept working, and I never stopped. Hard work is what lands people the creative jobs they have, and I was wrong to think that they fall into their laps. I appreciate those creatives more now than ever. It’s hard work, and it’s work that never stops. It never leaves your brain.
This is what they are talking about when they talk about passion.
This Thanksgiving I am thankful for many things, my husband Curtis who is just as much a part of this business venture as I am. He does more than his fair share, and without him I’d be lost. I’m thankful for family, because family is what matters in this life. I’m thankful for my health, for my hands, and for my faith. I’m thankful to my friends both new and old. I’m thankful to the new friends I’ve made this year. You know who you are, and you are amazing. Happy Thanksgiving!
Image from that first shoot by Jessica Kettle