I recently came across this article on The Huffington Post. I read through it and felt I completely related with the study. The article illustrates that being creative is more than just being right brained. Creatives are highly emotional and complex people, and I for one can attest to that.
When I think about creative people I often think of emotional, disorganized people who work best in chaos. The same rings true for me. I don’t mind messes, in fact I work best that way. I like solitude, I like the quiet. I like being by myself and alone with my thoughts. Looking back on my life I’ve always been that way. I think, probably too much. Working in chaos is great in the moment, but I always think after the fact how much easier my life would be if I could just get organized and clean up as I go, or put things back where they belong. I know I’d save myself a lot of time, but my brain just isn’t wired that way as much as I wish it was.
There is something about the revival of Spring. I think throughout winter the wedding industry slows for most of us. The flowers are beautiful but aren’t as fun as they are in the other months(at least for me), and something about winter just feels somewhat less inspiring. You start to miss flowers, at least I do. You miss the mess, the silence, the colors, the chaos. It’s as if I crave it, I hate stress but I love stress. I think anyone who works events works best under pressure, because if you don’t you better get out now. Stress is just part of the job. Part of that stress comes from the time constraints, the fleeting flowers, the timelines. I think it also comes from the creative mind. No one is harder on me than me. I’ve never pushed myself harder than I’ve pushed myself the last year or so. I don’t even know where that determination came from. It’s like it was bottled up inside my whole life until I decided to unscrew the lid and it’s been flooding out ever since. Sometimes flooding so fast that I don’t even feel I can keep up with my own thoughts.
Ever since reading this article with Sarah Ryhanan of Saipua, I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it. She just gets it. She somehow manages to stay out of it, but still stay in it. She’s unforgettable in the best way. I admire what she’s done, and what she continues to do. I hope I can get there, that I can care, but not care. I hope I can continue to work hard, and continue to stay humble. This is my dream. Doing this is my dream, and I never ever want to take for granted that I’m getting to live it. I never want to get too caught up in it that I lose sight of that. In this industry that’s an easy thing to do.
BRRCH (one of my very favorites) recently posted on instagram, what’s the best advice you’ve ever received. For me, two things came to mind. Curtis’ grandpa always says, “If you are going to do something you better damn well do it right,” and “if you say you are going to do something, you better damn well do it.” I think they speak for themselves but I do try to live by those in everything that I do and say. Also, be kind. I really have tried my hardest to be as kind as I can in this business and pay it forward, to help those who have asked for it. I still have a lot to learn in this business but if there is something I can do to help making something a little easier for someone else based on my experience or mistakes I hope I can do that.
Happy Spring friends.
Photos by D’Arcy Benincosa